When taste overrules hunger

gluttonyIt’s everywhere in our society and churches, yet almost never talked about.

We like to say all sins are “equal” in the eyes of God, that there is no scale of less or worse sins, that a white lie or a homicide alike would have been enough to require Christ to die on the cross. We say this in theory, but in practice, we know that a white lie won’t get you kicked off the church leadership or worship team. And a homicide likely will.

In practice, there are some sins that are socially acceptable, even in the Church. There’s one sin in particular that has pervaded our society and churches so silently we hardly give it a second thought, and that is the constant hunt for more over what is enough. Or, in an uglier terminology, what is known as gluttony.

At its simplest, gluttony is the soul’s addiction to excess. It occurs when taste overrules hunger, when want outweighs need.

All desire for excess stems from a lack of satisfaction. I’m not satisfied with my portion—be it the portion on my plate, in the marriage bed, or in my bank account. Because I’m not satisfied with my portion, I then seek a greater portion. But because every portion is a finite part of a finite whole, I am constantly chasing an excess that can never satisfy.

This is the story of Genesis 3. What was the sin in the Garden of Eden if not a desire for excess? Adam and Eve were given beautiful sights and beautiful tastes in the absence of shame, but what made the garden a paradise was not any of this. It was a paradise because God walked in the cool of the day with them. And yet, Adam and Eve’s downfall was because they deemed even this as not enough. They weren’t content with their portion of paradise, and they reached out—to disastrous consequence—for more.

Like them, we are ravenous beings. We embody bottomless cravings that constantly paw at the next attractive thing. Our appetites are as strong as death, Proverbs 27:20 tells us. We are always on the move for the next thing that can satisfy and slake our restless thirst. This endless pull is the engine of gluttony. It propels our souls ever toward excess.

And yet, the desire for “more” is often misdirected. What we need is a relentless appetite for the divine. We need a holy ravenousness. Our craving souls can turn and become enthralled by a goodness that is found in the presence of an all-glorious God. There is only one infinite source of satisfaction that can satisfy our bottomless cravings.

In pursuit of lesser portions, our tastes have dulled. We’ve become numb to our real hungers, filling them with lesser fare. But when we return to the source, we taste a new.

Psalm 34:8 challenges us to see the difference for ourselves: “Taste and see that the Lord is good.” I think Paul understood this verse when he told the people at Lystra that God gives food and gladness so that our hearts would turn from vain things and turn to the ultimate satisfaction of who God is (Acts 14:15-17).

Consequently, God has ordained that His goodness can be tasted and seen .First, it means that every finite pleasure and satisfaction is meant to point us toward the infinite pleasure and satisfaction of God. My admiration for a sunset, then, need not stop at that horizon, rather it can curve upward into praise and gratitude. Second, it means that if our desire for “more” is misplaced, then certainly it can be redirected to something good as well.

Do we relish the chance to spend a few more minutes in prayer, hidden away from the world for just one more taste of the divine? When was the last time we lingered long over the pages of an open Bible because we just couldn’t stop admiring the honeyed flavor of an ancient truth? If the Bible is the story of the only infinite good, why do we spend so much of our lives at lesser tables?

My prayer is we would feast on an infinite God who offers fullness of life, rather than these lesser tables with the far milder flavors of money, food, sex and power.

In Pursuit

proverbs31I have been snooping around the Amazon and got a really good excerpt from an eBook writer Amy, Pursuit of Proverbs 31. This article made me ball like a baby–in a good way! hahahaha. Needless to say, every wife has her own perspective of this woman. Trying to match up with her, in pursuit of her. What made her so great to be recognized by the wise writer of Proverbs.

She really intimidated me. Her standards were up there,Whooop,you know, to the roof. Most of the time I don’t have it all together  but she does, she knows who she is, what is expected of her and even conquers the world at every turn.

Here’s the excerpt.

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In Pursuit of Proverbs 31, by Amy

Many of us are fascinated with, and at the same time terrified of, the woman in Proverbs 31. This woman was a wife, mother, manufacturer, importer, merchant, manager, realtor, farmer, seamstress, upholsterer, and the list goes on and on. She is intimidating to say the least. I’ll admit I’ve snarked at her under my breath on more than one occasion.

We still try to be like her though, don’t we? And when we fall short we don’t want to face it. Instead, we try to hide behind strength and facades of perfection. But, there is always the One who can see right through us. He sees our hearts and our intentions. He knows what the neighbors would have never guessed; we don’t have it all together.

I, too, thought I was conquering this short snippet of time called life. At one point, I worked my fingers raw cleaning my home and crafting items I had no interest in. I memorized Scripture so that I could quote it at the next Bible study. I kept my hair in a trendy, but easy to manage, style and I spent lots of money on fashionable clothing so I could look nice at church functions. I smiled and laughed even on some of the worst days of my life. I didn’t allow myself to be vulnerable or to break. I was more than super-woman. I was super-Christian-woman. I can do all things, right?

Yet, even in the midst of wearing the super-woman cape I echoed the questions that have plagued the hearts and minds of so many:

Why can’t I get it right? How can I find more time to get it all done? Why isn’t God helping me?

Aren’t those the kind of thoughts and emotions we go through? Life brings us obstacles and we make it our responsibility to conquer them. On the outside we look like we have it all together. We roar while standing on top of a basket of freshly folded laundry when on the inside we are meowing and begging for someone to see us, to take notice.

Somehow we miss the one thing the Proverbs 31 was praised for: her fear of the Lord.

As I read and meditated on the Scriptures and tried applying them to my life, something odd happened. I became filled with anger, bitterness, anxiety, and was more overwhelmed than when I started. When I heard other women speak about all the Proverbs 31 guidelines they had achieved I would feel myself cringe inside. Why was I different? Why couldn’t I just get it?

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Have you ever felt this way?

It may not always be easy because we will have to overcome some mindsets we may have formed.

Only Christ can completely fulfill Scripture. He did so on the cross. That was His job. My job is to accept that and follow Him. We aren’t expected to do all that is written in Proverbs 31 and yet, in our imperfections we are still worth “more than rubies.”

The skills of a Proverbs 31 woman are the result of her relationship with Him. Her relationship with Him is not the result of her skills.

This is a simple, biblical approach to living up to your God-given potential.

Hugging it out

forgivenessLast week was a crazy week for me.I actually thought people were out to frustrate me starting from the matatu tout,to the bank teller,to friends and the list goes on.Above all the happenings I learnt that forgiveness is a choice.And as C.S Lewis says “To be a Christian means to forgive the inexcusable because God has forgiven the inexcusable in you.”

The concept of forgiveness can be a hard thing to digest.  If someone wronged us, granting forgiveness can feel almost as if we’ve been hit twice.

Our minds cannot grasp some acts deserving forgiveness.  Can you think of something that has been or would be hard to forgive?  I’m sure you could—I just thought of three in about five seconds flat.  Forgiveness doesn’t always appear justifiable.  Why should we let our perpetrator off the hook?

“Forgiving those who hurt us is the key to personal peace.”~ G. Weatherly

This residual weight strapped to our shoulders is not only a nuisance, but can be draining, tormenting, and even suffocating.  To choose to carry this pain can feel as if the incident is recurring with each passing day.  Neither party wins.

My Glimpse in the Mirror

I’ve recently asked myself, “Where would I be if I was never granted forgiveness for my own transgressions?”  Sadly, the answer wasn’t pretty.  We all appreciate forgiveness for our mistakes.  God forgives us over and over again every single day.  Upon acknowledgement of our blunder and a sincere request for forgiveness, His mercy awaits.  So wouldn’t it be hypocritical not to reciprocate this generosity to others?

“Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

Ephesians 4:31-32

We are left with a choice:  do we forgive, or do we carry the weight?  It’s not an easy decision.  Given we make the decision to forgive, our next step(s) toward allowing that act to transpire can be even harder.  Here’s where prayer comes in, asking God to locate the strength and perspective within us to not only want to forgive but also follow through with that desire, surrendering to His wisdom when our need for justice yanks us backward.  We give our Father our torment and baggage and embrace the metamorphous of our heart.  We do this each and every day, over and over again until we are able to welcome this road as if no other choice had ever been appealing.  We simply can’t do it alone.

Why do we continue to hand out forgiveness—shouldn’t we reach a threshold at some point?  We don’t have a limited bank of forgiveness to grant.  God emulates for us limitless love, grace and mercy.  He doesn’t issue this sparingly.  Forgiveness is a choice, not a well that will run dry.  The option will always be available.  So what stops us from giving it?  Only ourselves.

“Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, ‘Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?‘ Jesus answered, ‘I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.’”

Matthew 18: 21-22

The choice is ours.

Larry Liza

larry liza wedoLarry Liza is one fun christian,person,poet and friend.I could not stop laughing the first time I met him at Mamlaka church.That is normally hard since my sense of humor is wuuuuh…...you know.He captures the essence of the theme in his poems.He is one kenyan poet who is taking our kenyan roots to another level through poetry all over the world.

He really graced our wedding day and believe you me, my husband and I had fun the Liza way.

One of my favorite Liza poem is THE PEOPLE OF FACEBOOK.It got me cracking up all day because I just fitted the ‘likist‘ category.Awww snap!

With his permision,Here’s a preview of it from his collection of Petals Of Poetry 2014 

The braggartsujaluo ni gharama
‘At JKIA first class lounge’
‘Heathrow Business Lounge’
Never to see ‘Mogadishu airstrip’

The yappers – post it all
‘Woken up’, ‘Showered’
‘What’s for dinner?’
(as if we cook for you)
‘Yawn’ ‘Boredom’ ‘Diarrhea’
‘Brazil lost’ (as if we didn’t know)

The murderers – of language
Xaxa, 2me2pana’,
rotflol’, ‘hbd’, I 4c trabo
‘Don no wen’ ‘ai het pipo!’
4get kapxar azn c-oni, 2chat ltr
Lawd, tsa hawwwt

The whinersvuvuzelas
‘This gov’t is stupid’
‘I hate lazy people’
‘Left key at home’ (so, we bring it?)
‘KRA must style up’

The photosees
More selfies than meals
The nails, food, the cat, toes
The wind, the smell, the tout!
Groundies, roofies, toppies
Anyone for graveyards?

The silent ones – last post 2011
Be fooled not, they the snoops
The spiritual –‘Thank you Lord’
‘My Jesus, my bwana
‘They that wait upon the Lord’

The sharers – this, that, any
Shared Humans of New York photo
Joel Osteen’s status, Churchill’s photo
No shared monies whatsoever

The know-it-all lecturers
The likists
The feelings feelers
What are you?

Larry Liza © Petals of Poetry 2014

Kudos Larry,Keep up the good work.We celebrate you.

My scars tell my story.

pain“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.

I have had my fine share of painful periods in life. On the flipside, God has graciously given me a mild reprieve, but I still spend a lot of time thinking about all that happened and the way God used trials and tribulations to remold and reshape me.

What do you do when everything you have placed your hope and faith in is swept out from underneath you like a rug, leaving you hopeless and literally on the floor, asking, “Why, God?”

As dramatic of a description as that may seem, I know what it feels like to lose out on a dream. It’s heartbreaking. And for me, even though it was a rude awakening, it was also a fresh beginning and a chance to truly, for the very first time, trust God and give him the pen of my life’s story—including my most of all my faith story.

We can never let ourselves forget that the struggle is part of the story. The nightmare we may be living—or have lived at some point—is something God can use to remind us of our need for Him. He can take our broken pieces and make them into something beautiful if we only trust Him. I know because I have experienced it.

Beauty for Ashes.

“As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me;

your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me!” {Psalm 40:11}

 In these hard times, we often have to hit rock bottom before we realize our true need for God. In these times, we find Him on our knees. And when we do—when we humble ourselves before the Lord and ask Him for help—that is when we are reminded of whose arms will never fail us, whose ears will never tire of our cries and whose shoulder we can always lean on.

“I waited patiently for the Lord; he inclined to me and heard my cry.

He drew me up from the pit of destruction,out of the miry bog,and set my feet upon a rock,making my steps secure.He put a new song in my mouth,a song of praise to our God.” {Psalm 40:1-3}

 When I was forced to deal with the broken pieces of life that came my way , the Lord opened my eyes to see that the life I had been living was utterly self-focused. He had so many wonderful purposes for allowing my struggle! I realized that I had been so narrow-minded in getting what I wanted most that I placed some important relationships in my life on the back burner.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth,so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” {Isaiah 55:8-9}

 And as the Lord continued closed some major doors in my life, I had to learn to dance in the hallway until more of them opened up. And, even now—even though many doors have opened and many changes have taken place in my life—I am still dancing in the hallway in some areas. But I have hope that even if the doors I want opened remain closed, God knows better than I do, and His ways are not my ways.

Today I pray that God would open the eyes of everyone reading this to see that His ways are best. And even when struggle and scars come, those struggles have a purpose and an important role in our stories. Let the struggles draw you closer to God and teach you true dependence on Him alone.

Is It Chatting,Cheating or Tujuane?

marriageI am a techgal,I love technology, am a fan of  social media but there’s just a limit to what it can do in terms of corrupting our virtues.

Facebook Is Just one of the many social media sites that has given us a new way to communicate with others.  It Is used to keep up with trending topics in others lives in a quick and creative way.

Unfortunately, sin and temptation lead us beyond appropriate relationship boundaries using these social media sites as a means of intimate communication with people outside of our marriages.

Let us be careful how we use facebook and other social sites.  Talk to your spouse about boundaries and keep each other accountable to the exclusivity of intimacy in your marriage.

I love facebook! I have up to date pictures from my friends, prayer requests,my former classmates talk to me about what college their attending and so much more fun stuff. I have met very good friends on the platform.I love all that fun communication!

I also don’t like facebook. I don’t like when someone writes something distasteful, or posts pictures that are not appropriate, I dont like the gossip or negative ethnicity but most of all I don’t like what it does to the marriage institution.

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A few months back James came home from work and told his wife,Rita, about how he had asked the wife (Essy)of an old high school buddy if her husband (John) had email(on Facebook). Essy soon told James they were divorced but it didn’t end there. She went on about how she was abused and abused by him .James told his wife Rita all of this conversation.  She told James to be careful, because she was giving too much intimate information and she could be trying to suck him in to her life.

The husband, feeling very secure in their loving wonderful marriage of 12 years said she was right and he would be careful.

Well unknown Rita the conversations kept going and going.  Her husband James says he thought he was helping her by listening. She just kept pulling him in by heaping on the personal information.  After a while Rita started having this strange feeling that something wasn’t right. She had her husband’s password to his account (due to trust and  accountability) on facebook. So about 11:30am during the weekday(with a strong feeling), she logged on his account and looked at his messages.  What she didn’t realize was James was chatting with her right then! She stopped breathing for a second, she felt her whole world spin out of control.

This is what she read…….

“I’m sorry you’re hurting” her husband , James 

“I hurt all the time, people have said they love me but they don’t really.” Ess

“I love you” James

“I wish I was with you” Ess

“You are my everything. I want to make everything alright for you.” James

“I wish I would have met you earlier, you are a gentleman” Ess

“Me too. xoxoxo” James

She was angry , devastated. She decided to call him and confront him on his friendship with Ess.She was still in front of the computer and as she was talking to him he wrote to her…

“I got to go somehow my wife found our conversations.I will have to delete them. I will talk later. Love you.” James

Ess wrote “Uh oh, you’re in trouble now.”

James told Rita he was coming home. She had twenty minutes to think. She started packing. Her stuff and her two kids stuff. She was shaking and crying. She thought their marriage was so good. They love God, they love each other they love their kids. They go on dates, they talk to each other, they share, they hold hands, they do things for each other. How could this be? She warned him! How could he do this to God, her, to them, to their kids?

James came home and they talked and talked (Ok, she yelled and yelled). He said he thought he could help Ess feel better without getting involved ,He said he thought he was strong enough to handle it. That he was a strong enough Christian to help her. He thought because he loved his wife so much he couldn’t get sucked in. He could just be a friend and help her.

This had rocked her marriage to the core,trust was broken,their marriage vows shaken,the wife he was supposed to protect and shield was hurting.God holds him accountable for his marriage He begged, pleaded, and most of all he learned a huge lesson.

No One Is Strong Enough!Marriage couples must stand in guard in Christ,lest they too become lured by the strong pull of the world.

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